There was a season in my life where it seemed like every issue I thought I had overcome came circling back. It began with a thought, a memory or a fear. When I am reminded of the hurt I went though or job issue, I dwell in that feeling for a bit till I find myself asking God “why, why again”.
I can see now that he was building my faith, my strength, my trust, he lead me to a greater knowledge of who I am in Christ. I was thought by the spirit of the word to rule over my mind. The place where my battles are fought.
To overcome I had to submit by doing the following:
1. Submit my thoughts to God:
My greatest battles are in my mind, the place where the enemy believed that he had me alone. I can remember circling thoughts for hours, this at times had me physically paralyzed, I literally couldn’t move pass it. Well so I thought, then I started something practical, bringing my thoughts into obedience to God and his word. I literally use to bawl at myself. I would say; NO! I don’t want these thoughts they are a lie, then I would feed on scriptures. It’s important to know what God says about us so we don’t believe every lie, even if it comes from us.
2. Submit to covenant people:
I can remember talking to one of my pastors about the issues that will circle back and she would say; ” sometimes we are in a season in our lives where God is pruning away everything in our hearts that can draw us away. Maybe there is something more you have to learn from this, don’t run from it. In running, if the lesson is not learned it can cause you to be in another cycle”. I must say how important it is to have someone in your life that will tell you not what you want to hear but what your spirit man needs to grow. In that moment I began to look deeper.
3. Submit to the pruning:
I dealt with rejection from a relationship and a job by running into God. When I say run I mean run, I told God that I am his, I want to be an honorable vessel for his purpose in the earth. If I didn’t do that I would have remained in that dark place in my mind. I began to give myself to his word, I made seeking his kingdom and his way first priority, so much so that if I find myself drifting away I would know. I began to read his word as a person desiring to be filled. I did not want my life, emotions to be dependent on anything or one but God and his word. I wanted more of God and still do. I began to seek out a relationship with my God. The most fulfilling relationship I ever had and ever will.
4. Receive healing:
To heal from rejection, disappointment and betrayal, I had to submit to the word of God. At times this seemed to be the hardest thing I ever did because I wanted what my flesh wanted. I wanted answers, revenge, but my God in his beauty said show love. Yep God is opposite like that, we are charged with being the unique one. The one that will obey his word.
Exodus 14:13-14 NKJV; And Moses said to the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord , which He will accomplish for you today. For the Egyptians whom you see today, you shall see again no more forever. The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.”
This is one of my power thought scriptures where I hold fast to a promise that once I stand still in God, obediant to his will and word I will be overcome every and all encounters that does not produce righteousness. He will fight for me, the trouble (Egyptians), whatever kept me in bondage I would no longer face.
Glory to God!