When news came that my cousin died the thoughts came rushing in;
Why didn’t you heal him and answer our constant prayers?
How can I declare with faith and boldness that you are the never failing God?
How can I declare that you are a healer if you didn’t heal him?A country was praying, my family was praying. Why didn’t you use this opportunity to show the nation(s) who you are, all eyes were watching?
My mind was flooded yet I believed that Everything works for good even if I had to hear a no at some point.
As I write, I can hear in my spirit, “because a nation must know that life without me is no life at all”. I pride in knowing that Kevin died in Christ so he has the promise of eternal life, Cuz, we shall meet again in glory 😘.
The praise snatching news
I can remember those last few days before his death, it’s like we were in a state of waiting (prayerfully and physically) waiting. The news of his death hit the family like a whirlwind. I must admit, that Saturday I avoided talking to God. I will speak of him but not to him. It was so hard for me to pray and not question God so I will just go through my day. Sunday morning I was in tears, as I prep for church I knew what was coming, I had to worship and knowing me I love to worship. I stood in my usual seat, and as the sweet aroma went up to heaven I Burst into tears. I couldn’t lift my hands or declare that God was great, it was too painful, I had doubt in my heart. In that moment I had a serious discussion with God. The questions came back again, lord why, and lord how can I say you are great, didn’t I have enough faith? You took my cousin so far we didn’t expect this outcome.
Then the lord said the most profound thing, I AM STILL… it’s like he was prompting me to answer him. As the tears continued I submitted saying, “you oh God is still great, you’re still a healer, you’re still a good good father, help me to push pass this”! Then there was a release in my spirit I was set free.
Press and Praise through
The enemy will try to use our situations to steal our praise. To this day I find comfort in the word of God and is comforted by the spirit of God. If I allowed by situation to guide my response to God I would still be bound to my emotions. I find peace in knowing that my cousin is with Jesus. I witnessed how his illness moved a county, churches and families to pray and fast and draw persons closer to God, and we should continue.
My Comfort Scriptures:
“Good people pass away; the godly often die before their time. But no one seems to care or wonder why. No one seems to understand that God is protecting them from the evil to come. For those who follow godly paths will rest in peace when they die.”
Isaiah 57:1-2 NLT
“This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Joshua 1:9 NLT